Tonight my heart goes out to my son, Chad.
We found out early this morning this his baby's Mom had plans of moving to Wisconsin and taking Esera without letting his Dad know about it and letting him have one more time to visit with him, hold him and tell him how much his Daddy loves him.
I got to go with Chad on Friday to visit with Esera, but we didn't have a clue that might be the last time we would get to see him. If I had know I would have stayed all day and taken hundreds of pictures and loved that little fella so much.
As soon as I found out the plan and pulled myself together I had to call Chad and let him know what was going on, that's what a Mother is suppose to do right? I had to let him know even though there was no way to stop her from going, I only had hopes that Chad could get to hold him and love him one more time before he was gone. Thank God he did make it down there and got to spend about ten minutes with him today. I know his heart is very heavy tonight and breaking. Today is the first time I have heard my Son crying in a very long time and it just broke my heart that there was nothing I could do to 'fix it' for him. I did get him to contact a lawyer to find out his 'rights' as a father and he was off to the court house to file a petition for visitation rights before she got out of state with Esera. I don't if any of that will help him get to see his Son any time soon and I feel so helpless today that I couldn't make it right. I understand that she wanted to move back where most of her family is and try to make a better living for herself and the baby, go back to school where she could get her nurse's license and make a go of it, I don't hold any of that against her, it is just the way she was going to sneak out of town and not let Chad know cause she was afraid he would start trouble or try to get Esera. They are well on their way by this hour and I don't know if I will ever get to see my grandson again, or how long it will be before Chad gets to hold his baby again. Keeping all of them in my prayers and in my heart.
I love you Son and am so sorry I couldn't do more for you today. My heart is crying right along with you. Esera, what a precious little boy you are. I love how you lay your little head up against my shoulder when I held you and loved me. You are the most beautiful little boy in the world and I miss you so much already.
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Mom
Here is the last picture taken of the two of them together...
